Faith.

Church is not the house of saints.

I often heard people said that not all people who went to church is good, probably they are just the as bad as others who didn't go tho church. Who said about the requirement to go to church is someone who is good and never do any sin? He said in Romans 3:23, for all have sinned and fall short of the glory of God. No one should ever judge about someone's choices about going to church because it is their action driven by their faith, not a symbol of how 'saint' they are. 

Matthew 26: 41, Watch and pray, that ye enter not into temptation: the spirit indeed is willing, but the flesh is weak. The only action we have to do is constantly praying, and whenever we fall into temptation, we seek for God's forgiveness. 

'I've prayed for so long, but nothing happened.'

'Why the non-believers were showered with  wealth and good life while me who prayed and went to church were always the same?'

Some whines I heard and often they take all the blame to God. They claimed that God didn't hear their wails and prayers. 

This illustration changes my view about how God always be there for us. We often blamed God for not listening to our prayers and not granting every wish we have. The truth is, He always there for us. Where God guides, He provides. God always leads us to where we need to be, not to where we want to be. 

The Fault In Our Stars

Warning, there will be spoilers in this post, read at your own risk. 

I knew how the story ends, based on the spoilers people posted n social medias but I wanted to read and drowned deeper into John Green's writing, and here's how I reacted when I finished reading the book.

1. I cried, and it felt so good, finally all my mixed emotion rushed and I feel so much better after letting it all out, plus, I knew how exactly Hazel Grace was feeling in that particular time.

"I called Isaac, who cursed life and the universe and God Himself and who said where are the goddamned trophies to break when you need them,and then I realized there was no one else to call,which was the saddest thing.The only person I really wanted to talk to about Augustus Waters's death was Augustus  Waters"

Hazel Grace, TFIOS, page 262

"It was unbearable, the whole thing"

"My name is Hazel. Augustus Waters was the great star-crossed love of my life. Ours was an epic love story,and I won't be able to get more  than a sentence into it without disappearing into a puddle of tears. Gus knew, Gus knows. I will not tell you our love story, because-like all real love stories, it will die with us, as it should.I'd hoped that he'd be eulogizing me, because there's no one I'd rather have... " 

Hazel Grace, TFIOS, page 260

2. I love how Gus called Hazel her first and middle name, everytime whenever he answers her calls

"Hi, " I said

"Hazel Grace, " he said.

"Hi, " I said again.

"Are you crying, Hazel Grace?"

"Kind of?"

TFIOS,  page 121

"That's the thing about pain," Augustus said, and then glanced back at me. "It demands to be felt.

"I'm a grenade," I said again. "I just want to stay away from people and read books and think"

I can't wait for the movie to be released in Malaysia, very soon. Although reading the book gave me so much pleasure rather than watching the movie, but still, I want to see how Hazel Grace and Augustus Waters on screen. 

It's time to wipe all the spider webs.

 Been abandoning this blog for a long time. Sometime I really want to write something, a thought, motivational, books I recently read, updates, inspirational stories, photography but I can't cope with my so-called-new-life now. I'm utterly uninspired to spend more time with Jericho, and I'm feeling bad for myself for not being the person I've used to. So full of ideas on what to write and spill in this blog of mine. Gomenasai, minna-san.

1.Life been so much better, I'm trying to be more positive in life, being surrounded by different types of people with their own traits is my new challenge in life. I desperately trying to impress every single one of them but I fail to realize that I can't please everyone. 

2. Got 2 new books from Chris, she bought Wedding Night by Sophie Kinsella and The Time Keeper by Mitch Albom from India because the books are cheaper there compared in Malaysia. Finished reading both of the book, and maybe I write about the books later in separate blog post :) The Time Keeper is my favourite

3. Went to a family photoshoot at Everbest Photo, we've discussed about this before, long time ago when late dad is still alive but we couldn't find the perfect time for all of us to gather. Now, we had the chance even though big bro, one of my bro in law and late dad was not there. 

4. Went for a getaaway at Kuching, got the chance to meet Jaeverny and Ivy, spent a few days at Jae's home and went to Serian as well. Awesome 5 days vacation, thank you to Jae and Ivy for the hospitality <3

5. Attended engagements and wedding, I must say this year is the year of weddings and engagements. 

6. Falling in love

7. Priceless experiences during work.

8. Watched some nice movies, Despicable Me 2 and The Conjuring

9. Splurging money on dresses <3

10. Went to the Youth Conference at KDCA :)

I guess the list has sum up all my recent updates in my life so far :P 

Daddy's princesses.

Six degrees of separation

Listened to this song when I was doing chores. My playlist of song became so mundane lately, since I rarely watch tv/mtv at hostel. I only have the chance to get updated with eargasm song when I'm at home.

Some people said, a girl's favourite songs is a message that she can't express it verbally by herself. I have difficulties in finding the right words to express my feelings, so here I am, listening to greats songs and writing. 

There's no starting over, without finding closure.

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This song is well-explained. 

Why do dogs leave Earth first?

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I've always wanted a dog as a pet, but since my mum is not one of pet lovers, so situation became harder for me. I do have one dog now, a very loyal dog I must admit. I want a dog that I can bring it at home, sitting on the couch with me, playing frisbee together, etc. Like in the movies, Marley and Me and Hachiko. Those movies were great. Found this on Tumblr. 

People are born so that they can learn how to live a good life, like loving everybody all the time and being nice.

Dogs already know how to do that, so they don't have to stay as long.

Thank you, Father in Heaven.

Up,up and away~


I was so anxious while waiting for a phone call from our advisor regarding our final exam result. I was hoping I will not receive any calls but I can't guarantee that, since I knew well how bad my performance this semester. I was watching Nikita, my new-obsession tv series after The Vampire Diaries, and seems like I'm affected by the conflict of the storyline plus adrenaline rushed down while waiting for one particular phone call. It was not a good combination. Madam said that if there is no call until 5pm, that's mean you passed. So I keep an eye to my phone. When It's already passed 5, I logged in into my facebook account to see whether le classmates received any information from Madam.I found out that all of us passed, none failed and none will re-seat a paper.I couldn't ask for more, I feel grateful and for sure, it was all His mercy and guidance. Transcript will be given tomorrow with my logbook for practical year. I just want to thank Him, for He had given me strength to carry on this semester 3 with success. I'm nothing if it's not from Him, thank you Father :)

Things I need to do before I die.

Things I need to do before I die.

 Conquering Mount Kinabalu.

Philippians 4:13 (NIV)

Hello September :3 

I'm having my mid-semester exam on 4th September and now everything is a mess. No proper preparation because I'm having *honeymoon* at home during holidays. *sigh

I'm a little bit stressed but I'm not going to let myself give up. I CAN DO THIS! 

Made a video, some random video about my progress here. I can't believe I'm in the middle of semester two, and soon, semester 3, 1 year practical, last semester, then graduating, and working. Wauwauwau *jauh sy befikir. Some inspiration for me to get through all this ;)

Philippians 4:13 (NIV)

I can do everything through Him who gives me strength.Amen