Faith.

Church is not the house of saints.

I often heard people said that not all people who went to church is good, probably they are just the as bad as others who didn't go tho church. Who said about the requirement to go to church is someone who is good and never do any sin? He said in Romans 3:23, for all have sinned and fall short of the glory of God. No one should ever judge about someone's choices about going to church because it is their action driven by their faith, not a symbol of how 'saint' they are. 

Matthew 26: 41, Watch and pray, that ye enter not into temptation: the spirit indeed is willing, but the flesh is weak. The only action we have to do is constantly praying, and whenever we fall into temptation, we seek for God's forgiveness. 

'I've prayed for so long, but nothing happened.'

'Why the non-believers were showered with  wealth and good life while me who prayed and went to church were always the same?'

Some whines I heard and often they take all the blame to God. They claimed that God didn't hear their wails and prayers. 

This illustration changes my view about how God always be there for us. We often blamed God for not listening to our prayers and not granting every wish we have. The truth is, He always there for us. Where God guides, He provides. God always leads us to where we need to be, not to where we want to be. 

The Fault In Our Stars

Warning, there will be spoilers in this post, read at your own risk. 

I knew how the story ends, based on the spoilers people posted n social medias but I wanted to read and drowned deeper into John Green's writing, and here's how I reacted when I finished reading the book.

1. I cried, and it felt so good, finally all my mixed emotion rushed and I feel so much better after letting it all out, plus, I knew how exactly Hazel Grace was feeling in that particular time.

"I called Isaac, who cursed life and the universe and God Himself and who said where are the goddamned trophies to break when you need them,and then I realized there was no one else to call,which was the saddest thing.The only person I really wanted to talk to about Augustus Waters's death was Augustus  Waters"

Hazel Grace, TFIOS, page 262

"It was unbearable, the whole thing"

"My name is Hazel. Augustus Waters was the great star-crossed love of my life. Ours was an epic love story,and I won't be able to get more  than a sentence into it without disappearing into a puddle of tears. Gus knew, Gus knows. I will not tell you our love story, because-like all real love stories, it will die with us, as it should.I'd hoped that he'd be eulogizing me, because there's no one I'd rather have... " 

Hazel Grace, TFIOS, page 260

2. I love how Gus called Hazel her first and middle name, everytime whenever he answers her calls

"Hi, " I said

"Hazel Grace, " he said.

"Hi, " I said again.

"Are you crying, Hazel Grace?"

"Kind of?"

TFIOS,  page 121

"That's the thing about pain," Augustus said, and then glanced back at me. "It demands to be felt.

"I'm a grenade," I said again. "I just want to stay away from people and read books and think"

I can't wait for the movie to be released in Malaysia, very soon. Although reading the book gave me so much pleasure rather than watching the movie, but still, I want to see how Hazel Grace and Augustus Waters on screen. 

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My head is overloaded with negative thoughts as well as regrets for the past few days.I guess I'm thinking too much (as usual). Then I realised that failure is the best teacher.If I had never fail in achieving my goals, then I never think that it's okay to fail sometimes, use it as a stepping stone, to reach higher, to stand even though you've fall into the deepest place.