walls.

Having a deep conversation with Ivy last night. Somehow made me realised that I'm having problem with myself. I'm afraid of hurting other people and at the same time, afraid of getting hurt. I don't like to be stuck in this situation because I prefer to be someone very cheerful and doesn't have problems with this thing called love. 

After a series of unexpected (bad) things happened in my life, failure, breakup and funeral. I admit, despite the lost I've experienced, I'm even stronger, emotionally. I can't forget how devastated I am, but, every cloud has a silver lining :) I believe that everything happens for a reason.

Then I finally realised what keeps me so hard to move on. Memories.
A very simple answer to my question that been bugging me for 1 year.

then, at the end of the conversation, this girl learnt many things, one of them is letting go, moving on, and those tall walls I used to guard my heart before, is now gone.